I. Love. You

Three little words. I. Love. You.

Separate them and they could have so many different meanings, depending on what you put them with.

But what I wanted to write about, was how powerful these three little words are. They're so powerful that I've yet to truly be able to say them to anyone. I mean sure I love people. I love my family, my friends, I even love those that I hate. But yet have I really truly said I love them....no.

I frequently will say, "hey love", "love ya", "love you", "love ya lots", but yet saying I love you is so much harder. (I have said I love you to people in return though, to me still that isn't the same, it just feels almost required).

For me saying I love you is one of the strongest things you could ever say to someone, because you're taking yourself (I), and protesting out loud how you feel (love), to someone specific (you).

I've been very near to saying it only a few times in my life and really mean it, I mean I've said I love you to people, like my family, but to me it's more of a routine, than a true, genuine expression of love.

The thing is, lately it's been killing me, I've wanted to say it to someone so badly, but something always holds me back. I love people, I love them a lot, more than they will every know. I view most everyone has being loveable and completely worthy of love. I try my hardest to love everyone and show them that I love them.

But why is it so hard to actually tell someone that? Why is it so hard so say I love you?

Three little words.

Yet three little words with such a strong feeling behind them, that saying them is like giving up something you've held forever.

Just a ramble, but I felt like getting it out.

Not sure if anyone else even feels like this, but for me it's always been a struggle, I've always longed to say "I love you" to someone, but something holds me back, and I'm not sure what it is. But I feel there must be a reason behind it.

Maybe it's cause I'm afraid if I fully admit it to someone, they wont feel the same way back. And I'll be left giving something that I can't get in return. Maybe I just don't want to feel hurt.

"The greater your capacity to love, the greater your capacity to feel the pain."

"Love means exposing yourself to the pain of being hurt, deeply hurt by someone you trust."

"Loving is a feeling that brings both joy and pain to my heart. Joy from being with you, being filled with an emotion so deep and tender that no other feeling can compare. Pain from knowing that I'm so in love, that I'm more vulnerable than I've ever been"

"I understand with love comes pain, but why did I have to love so much?"

"If love is so important to have that one doesn't want to lose it, why is it when we find true love we often don't notice it?"